basically i'm fucked off

ok so i dont know what i'm doing anymore... i had 3 guys on the go, anymoney they are all wigging out on me at the same time!!!! number 1 is in belfast and i rarely get to see him and when i do he acts like an ass, number 2 is nice but it just doesnt seem like anything is going to happen, and number 3, well now... i thought for a while i liked the guy and he seemed to really like me but i sort of made out to my friends that i didnt really want a realtionship and my friedns were all like "oh when i get a fella i like i hold onto them and dont let them go" Kinda joking but not really. but i think i need to do this cause now that ive said that to my mates and had kinda got myself thinking in that way the guy has come back and said he wants to chill it and not move onto any kinda steady thing.... i mean i didnt plan for it to get to that level, infact if he had asked me too go steady i prob would have said no but its the fact that i think now that its defo not going to happen that i want it... i am so a girl... never wwanting wat i have always wanting what i dont. so is there anyone out there that wants me??? if so come up to me and kick me in the backside untill i notice you!!! next guy i really like im not letting go... and im esspecially not doing the non exclusive thing again!!!
but hey like i say,
my opinion doesnt even matter