and the outsiders say...

ok so I haven't blogged in a really long time

but over the last two days I have read more blog entries and articles and watched more vlogs than I think I watched during my whole undergrad dissertation study.

And every single one was about the same topic...

so forgive me for jumping on the bandwagon but I want to get my opinion out there. (even if it doesn't even matter!)

For me it all began on Saturday when i remembered that the streamy's where on Sunday (i say remembered, I mean I was reminded by all those on my twitter lists letting me know it was on)
To be honest it was a bit of a lift, because i had been so unwell last week. Something to kick me into motion this week back at work!

So on Sunday I planned my night ahead, had an extra long lie in on Sunday to prepare for the long night ahead and brushed up on my knowledge of some of the nominees!

So to cut a very lobng story short I ended up missing the Streamys... between my parents possibly being burgled (dont worry they didn't really, they just put away their laptop and couldn't find it) and organisational duties and the necessity of doing my tan before going back to work, the streamys where "mislayed" in my train of thought.

I actually had a dream about them, reminising about last year, and the glitz and glamour that i was sure was to be happening while i used up all of the Z's my body could.

I woke up early on Monday morning and retrieved my nice shiney new phone from it's charger and was straight onto twitter.

and there it was...

http://twitter.com/maxwellglick/status/12024004343

"The streamys are a complete disaster"

I read other tweets, Maxwell Glicks being possibly the most polite.

I searched for a good tweet, i was then onto google, reports of naked men streaking onto the stage with no sign of security to remove them, and technical issues all over the place.

And then that word...

VULGAR

if a report didnt say vulgar it was replaced with crass. I just couldn't believe it. between crude sex jokes and then on to a host that demeaned all the work that all the fantastic nominees had done over the past few years.


i honestly had to put down the phone. As I raced out to work I wondered if i had searched the wrong awards show. Surely a New Media Awards Ceremony wouldn't be making the creators of said New Media stupid by disgracing them infront of "traditional" media.

it felt like it was the most inteligent and cool kid in the class failing on purpose just to prove their old fuddy duddy teacher right, that you can't be cool and be smart!

over the past two days I have read countless blogs including one that actually made me quite upset/angry. A horrible Turn's Blog (http://tinyurl.com/horribleturn) discussed his experience of being a Nominee at this years Streamys.

If only he had know that those first early warning signs had been just that! byut like they say hindsight is twenty twenty vision!

so you may be asking what has my title got to say about this whole nightmare?

well occasionally in this great community that some of us call the Web entertainment there is an "Them adn Us " mentality. and by them and us I mean america and the rest of us. There are fantastic productions being made all over the world. So why, this year was the whole world looking towards LA for the Awards cermony of all Awards Cememonies for web?

We need to get our acts together and as a friend in the lg15 community "put the W back into WWW"

But I guess there is at least one good thing about not being in America during the New Media "boom"

I got to miss the Streamys! :(

basically i'm fucked off

ok so i dont know what i'm doing anymore... i had 3 guys on the go, anymoney they are all wigging out on me at the same time!!!! number 1 is in belfast and i rarely get to see him and when i do he acts like an ass, number 2 is nice but it just doesnt seem like anything is going to happen, and number 3, well now... i thought for a while i liked the guy and he seemed to really like me but i sort of made out to my friends that i didnt really want a realtionship and my friedns were all like "oh when i get a fella i like i hold onto them and dont let them go" Kinda joking but not really. but i think i need to do this cause now that ive said that to my mates and had kinda got myself thinking in that way the guy has come back and said he wants to chill it and not move onto any kinda steady thing.... i mean i didnt plan for it to get to that level, infact if he had asked me too go steady i prob would have said no but its the fact that i think now that its defo not going to happen that i want it... i am so a girl... never wwanting wat i have always wanting what i dont. so is there anyone out there that wants me??? if so come up to me and kick me in the backside untill i notice you!!! next guy i really like im not letting go... and im esspecially not doing the non exclusive thing again!!!
but hey like i say,
my opinion doesnt even matter

and so the pain begins

it's officially the end of my life... thats is right i am in the last termof my last year in university and i must begin my dissertation. so here's my idea.. vlogs... yes thats right i am fufilling my 3 years of intense study by writing about stuff on you tube! well ok not just that. i'm going to be discussing the growht of the vlog from ordinary diaries all the way up to the very popular subscriber vlogs on the internet. i'm going to be producing a vlog each week discussing my life, and my course. my first vlog is going to be entitled "would anne frank vlog" in relation to the beginings of vlogging. youknow how anne frank became famous through her diary. so it should be interesting. i'm going to get the video up on youtube.com asap so search it out and help me out!!! hopefully i'll get featured and then i'll get enough of a responds to include peoples opinions in my research... but always remeber my opion doesnt even matter!
later days!!

life after 21

ok so im old and tired all the time and i've turned into a grumpy old woman falling out with my friends because the scrounge lifts off me and and tell me im not clever "but in a good way". i am constantly complaining about being unfairly treateed by my landlady who constantly breaks the rules of our lease by walking into our house uninvited wiith her own key, giving us 1 hour to prepare for workmen and generally being a bitch. i mean if your mate passes out on your sofa because he is too drunk to walk home on his own does that solicite a woman who is mutton dressed as lamb shout at you for 20minutes because we are "running a doss house" and that if anything were to have happened when he was in the house over night we wouldnt have been insured. or what would you do if your landlady had obviously been through your stuff b#and you know this because you left the trap opf a blow up doll in your wardrobe to scare her and when you returned to the house it had been deflated rolled up and placed back in the wardrobe???
grrrr old slag!!
rant over....

bullshit

so ive decided to come back here to blog because i know james is the only person that ever reads this.. so james if you are reading this and dont want to read about me being in a bad mood again switch off now. so i was doing my blog on myspace and it was just a way of writing out what was in my head at the timne and everyone started getting worried about me... apparently im a worrier. one of the guys who was "worried" about me was a guy im really into (oh my god i sound american) and i thought was into me but i guess although it started as a sex thing i like him more than i thought i would but he says things that makes me think he likes me and then turns round at another time and randomly mentions things that makes me think he doesnt. i guess ill never get into the mentality of guys.
anyhoo as i always say
my opinion doesnt even matter.
and yes jame i really enjoyed your party... thanks so much for coming to mine.. and i swear to god if you ask me if im alright after reading this ill hurt you!! :P

grrrrrrrrrr

so my party turned out to be a few mates just chilling at my house. my holiday fell through mainly do to the fact that i am scared shitless to go futher into my overdraft.
cant wait to get back to uni to ignore my entire home life lol. well it aint that bad really.

cant wait for the biggest party of the year, macca and curlys big 21st bash... have had an idea for a costunmme, its a 90's party so ive decided to posssibly go as 1990's music star whigfield!!! saturday night and i like the way you move pretty baby
later days, and always remember my opinion doesnt really matter
cat!

just a little bored

sitting in my livivng room with layer cake on in the background. I'm absolutely wrecked, looking forward to a good sleep tonight. no work tomorrow which means i can do something it. posibly organise my party for next week. doubt anyone will be going but im happy enough, its a bit of a holiday for me and it will break up trhe summer for me. summer seems to be dragging on. considering a big holiday away in bulgaria or perhaps tunisia. i mean you only live once. and i'll figure out eventually how to pay abck loans etc. life will happen,
but remember my opinion doesnt even matter.
later days